Waiting for baby

My baby is supposed to be due on 2nd March... And my doc says that it could be anytime now that i welcome her to this world! I am so excited to meet her.. it's amazing how she has been surviving so well inside me all the past 9 months....

Anyhow, i realised i shld hv written down all the details of impending motherhood such as how i feel both emotionally and physically, when i started to feel what etc etc.. but somehow, being the lazy me, I did not do so.. and now, as i wait for my darling to emerge, I shall try to recall the whole process.

I only discovered I was preggy at 11 weeks. By then, when we went to the Doc, she already had a heartbeat! It was so unbelievable! Just like in drama serials, you cannot believe what you see and hear... I was so delighted but at the same time, apprehensive. I guess i'm not one of those typical ladies whose maternal clock ticks the moment they see a baby. I'm not one of those gushing women whose eyes melt when they set eyes on a baby.. I'm one of those 'Maybe i can do without a baby' kinda gal... At least until I heard the heartbeat. :P So happy as I was, I was also afraid of what was to come...

As in most cases, the belly did not start showing so there was a sense of disbelief for a few weeks that I was preggy. I suddenly thought of the sashimi and alcohol I had eaten in the past 3 months and wondered if it had harmed the baby. I also cringed when I thought of how I had jumped off the boat into cold waters when I was in Bali... and how I had rushed around the office in my heels trying to push out papers... What if something had happened? At that moment, I felt that my baby was a blessing and was going to be one strong baby.

Most people want to know whether the baby is a boy or gal... Of cos we were no different. We were unable to tell at the 4th month but everyone was guessing it was a boy because of the shape of the bump. Sharp and pointy - must be a boy! I had no preferences actually, just as long as the baby is healthy. By the 5th month, we went for a detailed scan (check structure of the body etc) and found out baby was to be a gal! So all those old wives tales about the shape of the belly are hogwash! There is more science to it. Anyway, we were going to have a daughter! We were both very happy.

At 6 months, the belly was already very obvious and it was then that we went to Australia for our very late honeymoon. Yes, 3 years after we had gotten married! V had been busy and I was teaching, making it difficult to get away for long periods of time. We had already booked the holiday long before we knew we were preggy. With the doc's blessings, we went to Aussie for 18 days. What glorious 18 days those were! Gorgeous sights, cool weather, great food (esp the milk and cheese) and most of all, it was STRESS free! I have not felt that way for such a long time. At home there are things to worry about - bills, parents, etc... At the office, there's deadlines, colleagues etc... But in Aussie, all was forgotten.... What a wonderful feeling! Each day passed and I wished we didn't hv to return....

Coming back was tough for me.. Returning to the grind of work made me miserable. Plus preggy women are always feeling like a furnace and the Singapore weather was not helping. I missed the cool air in Aussie... I was also getting larger everyday and climbing up the 3 flights of stairs to my office was not getting any easier. Thank goodness though, I have wonderful colleagues who encouraged me all the way, even offering to buy lunch for me. I don't know how to thank them, sometimes.

From then on, till now, we have been buying all the necessary stuff needed for baby... preparing the house (shifting furniture, cleaning up, washing laundry etc) and just anticipating her arrival. I have been a happy mummy, mostly because of V's love and support. He is such a wonderful person and it's during these times that I know that I've married the right man. Thankfully I have not let him down by throwing tantrums.. Although once or twice i have let the frustration get the better of me.. Being preggy makes you unable to do what you once used to.. For e.g.

1. Walk more slowly and like a penguin
2. Get hungry more easily
3. Get tired and fatigued more quickly
4. Lose concentration and become more forgetful
5. Feel like you are not contributing

And the list goes on.... but of cos it's not all bad because u get to:

1. Eat with wild abandon (well, almost)
2. Be pampered
3. Sleep all you want and no one calls you lazy
4. Gush about baby and no one gets bored
5. Get less work cos no one wants to stress you!

Back to the post title, we are still waiting.. Let's hope baby won't come too late! We really cannot wait to see her and her beautiful face. :)