I am a complicated person. There are so many things that I want to do, but I cannot. There are so many things I wish I can do, but deemed socially unacceptable or morally wrong. Or at least I think society deems so. I hate being governed by rules, I want to do anything and everything just because! Yet we live in this practical world, where people can’t live without simple rules of life. Even living this life, there are rules! I don’t like it. I am an emotionally complicated person too. I am not a practical person. I do something because I want to, not because it is a calculated decision. If I want to go to the beach, I hope I don’t have to worry about the weather. And if it does rain when I get there, I guess I’ll just be in my bikini, playing in the rain, and enjoying every single moment of it.
Does that make me a simple person? Content with something so simple as unexpected rain? I think I just don’t fit in with the world around me. The world which seems to want us to be more complicated than we are. For instance, Shakespeare, I’m guessing, never meant many of the things that humans seem to interpret from his text, yet Literature students delve into every single line, read between every single word to find out what Shakespeare really meant. What if he only meant the obvious things? Does it mean he probably was less complicated and gifted than people believe? I don’t know…
There have been occasions in which I have taken the less traveled path, went down that path based on instinct alone, and it burnt me. So now I opt for the tried and tested route, safe and sound, knowing that the life will resemble a plateau, with few ups and downs and mostly staying along the flat line. But it doesn’t satisfy me. I want more. I want those ups and downs that come with the experience. I like the intensity of emotions – utter joy and jubilation and also along with it utter sorrow and desperation. I know it’s silly to also include the sorrow, but hey, it’s not realistic to say that we can only experience extreme and intense happiness. I seem to like being intense. Passion. Love. I can live on these two things alone. Give me Air to go with it too, please. Other than that, you can chuck out money, practicality and all the rules in the world. Such is the person I am.
V says I am simple, but the world is forcing me to be complicated. I am at friction with the world and myself. What an enviable state to be in… Anyone out there feels the same way? Let’s go jump in the sea in the middle of the night! After all, there are no sharks in Singapore waters, are there?
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Happy postings!
I thought that since i am in a rather good mood, after having found my camera, that I will post up some pictures of some recent places Ive been to. Actually, some of them are months back, but still worth mentioning.
Jazz at Siloso Beach with Deirdre and
Lynette! (Free of charge)
Drinks with them, Chern Min and Grace
at KM8 (after Jazz). I love the cute tepee-
like thing we are sitting under.
My cousin Chris when he was back for
a visit. We're only 6 days apart in age.
A recent trip to Bali with V, my sis and
bro-in-law. Couldn't resist posing with
the statue, with flowers inserted in its
ears. The Balinese are such gentle pple.
Jazz at Siloso Beach with Deirdre and
Lynette! (Free of charge)
Drinks with them, Chern Min and Grace
at KM8 (after Jazz). I love the cute tepee-
like thing we are sitting under.
My cousin Chris when he was back for
a visit. We're only 6 days apart in age.
A recent trip to Bali with V, my sis and
bro-in-law. Couldn't resist posing with
the statue, with flowers inserted in its
ears. The Balinese are such gentle pple.
Found!!
Guess what? Of all the lucky turns, my camera has been found! It was with my colleague, who had mistaken it for hers. Reading my distressed email, she checked her bag and it was in there, together with hers. Yahoo! At least I won’t have to buy one now.
Pictures will be up soon as I get my beloved cam back. Did you know I bought that camera with my first bonus in 2003, my first half year of work? It reminds me that I’ve actually been in the service for coming to 3 years now. Time does fly.
Pictures will be up soon as I get my beloved cam back. Did you know I bought that camera with my first bonus in 2003, my first half year of work? It reminds me that I’ve actually been in the service for coming to 3 years now. Time does fly.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Lost my camera! :(
Just when I thought I’d upload some funny pictures, I cannot find my camera. I left it on my colleague’s table or mine, went around to talk to my colleagues, and voila, it is gone! Moan! Although it is 3 years old, it was bought with my first working salary! It has sentimental value, people, and sadly, I have been careless with it. I remember holding onto it so carefully till I reached the staffroom, knowing it’d not be safe when the students were around. Sadly, it seems that it’s not even safe in the staffroom. One can never be too careful.
I hope someone has taken it and kept it safely for me. My only consolation is that the LED light indicator showing when it has finished charging is spoilt. However, knowing me, it was far from being rendered ‘throwable’ or ‘replaceable’. I still enjoyed using it.
I’m just thankful that nothing sensitive is on the camera, just a shot of me and my colleagues. If anyone sees that picture, I hope they return it to me! I want my camera back… sigh. New camera for my birthday, anyone? I would be most appreciative and glad.
This is probably a wake up call for me, right? Time to be more careful with my belongings. Problem is, now, I’m just not in the mood to do anything. I keep trying to retrace my steps to see where it is, but somehow it just doesn’t add up! If I had left it on my colleague’s table or mine, it should be there. The office staff said no student had walked by. Oh, camera, where art thou? Moan.
Have already sent out an email to everyone, hoping against hope that someone has taken it by mistake. Though, it is also true, as my other colleague so rightly put it, who would take it and not realize it’s not theirs? Meaning, of course, that if it was taken, it was on purpose and I’d never see it again. I have to be realistic that it’s most probably gone. Whine!
If only there was a beeping device on it for me to trace it. Too many CSI movies do affect you in some way.
I hope someone has taken it and kept it safely for me. My only consolation is that the LED light indicator showing when it has finished charging is spoilt. However, knowing me, it was far from being rendered ‘throwable’ or ‘replaceable’. I still enjoyed using it.
I’m just thankful that nothing sensitive is on the camera, just a shot of me and my colleagues. If anyone sees that picture, I hope they return it to me! I want my camera back… sigh. New camera for my birthday, anyone? I would be most appreciative and glad.
This is probably a wake up call for me, right? Time to be more careful with my belongings. Problem is, now, I’m just not in the mood to do anything. I keep trying to retrace my steps to see where it is, but somehow it just doesn’t add up! If I had left it on my colleague’s table or mine, it should be there. The office staff said no student had walked by. Oh, camera, where art thou? Moan.
Have already sent out an email to everyone, hoping against hope that someone has taken it by mistake. Though, it is also true, as my other colleague so rightly put it, who would take it and not realize it’s not theirs? Meaning, of course, that if it was taken, it was on purpose and I’d never see it again. I have to be realistic that it’s most probably gone. Whine!
If only there was a beeping device on it for me to trace it. Too many CSI movies do affect you in some way.
Friday, August 04, 2006
Cheesecakes and politics
Ok so I did promise to up some pics, so here they are. The first one you see is one of the cheesecake that I made. It tasted great then, but the texture left much to be desired. It was actually quite wobbly… because I had put cling film over it, causing it not to harden well. So anyway, I tried another recipe with longan and vanilla essence, which turned out nice, but a little too rich for me..Yes, even for me! So finally, the most recent test was the best! A full digestive crust with lots of butter, then lemon juice for the cheese mixture and once again, peaches for the top! It’ll be even nicer with strawberries, I guess.
My next attempt would be to make banana pudding. It’s very sinful though, so I’m waiting for the 3 cheesecakes (or part thereof) to be digested.
It’s been an interesting week at work. Lots of politics going on and the school management, I have to say, is overwhelmed at this moment. I am foreseeing a lot of movement and discontent. My guess is there will be a mini eruption sometime soon. When, exactly, I am not sure, but my sixth sense is sensing something. Am just glad that I will not be part of it. And am even more glad, that I stayed far away from it from the beginning. Thanks to my intuition.
My next attempt would be to make banana pudding. It’s very sinful though, so I’m waiting for the 3 cheesecakes (or part thereof) to be digested.
It’s been an interesting week at work. Lots of politics going on and the school management, I have to say, is overwhelmed at this moment. I am foreseeing a lot of movement and discontent. My guess is there will be a mini eruption sometime soon. When, exactly, I am not sure, but my sixth sense is sensing something. Am just glad that I will not be part of it. And am even more glad, that I stayed far away from it from the beginning. Thanks to my intuition.
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